2010

Do everyone's know what I’ve been through? No! Sure they don’t. Even my family didn't realize what is going on inside my heart. You know, my heart was filled by wound that never been treated. But, only I know how painful it was.

Start from early of primary school; I always play with friends without knowing the meaning of friendship. What I know is I'm happy to be with them.

When I was in high school, friends were meant so much to me. I always need them to share something whether is bring happiness or sadness to us. For me, that time was heaven, until one day I had been betrayed by my only best friend. I shouldn't tell you what was happened between us but it did hurt my heart.

After that incident, I hate to get closer with people named friends. I were too phobia to get dumped again. So, my friends always left without me. These pains were never heal even at once. I'm trying to change that kind of attitude. But still it takes time to get into the track. Unfortunately, the same thing is happening to me. Sometimes, I feel like I've been cursed.

In the year of 2010, I'm hoping that I may survive. But, my thought seems to be wrong. I really need friends. I don't care if people say that I was desperately to have friends, yes! I admit that I do need friends.